The Grey of Black and White

Through a work of the Spirit I have survived this week and an intensive class on dismantling racism this weekend (Fri.-Sun.). Still breathing and amazingly cognitively functioning fairly well, but very wiped out. So excited to go to bed!!

One of the most powerful parts of the class this weekend was watching the documentary The Color of Fear (1994)by Lee Mun Wah. Highly recommend you see it and then process it with people you know well and trust. It's intense, vulgar, brutally honest and touches the depth of humanity and racism. Really helped me understand what white privilege is and how it impacts people of other colors, races and ethnicities.

Hurricane October

I'm exhausted. I think it all started a week and a half ago when my history paper was due. I've never had such a hard time writing a paper. I think it injured my brain--permanently. Then in an attempt to recover from burning up my brain, I got behind in reading and suddenly realized the 4 books I need to read for the dismantling racism intensive class is due next weekend. I've only finished one of them. Not to mention how far behind I am in history now.

I have a history test next Wednesday that I haven't even started studying for. I started dog/cat sitting yesterday. Honestly though, the animals give me a reason to get out of bed in the morning. Last night I wrote a sermon that apparently turned out okay, but certainly wasn't my best work (plus it kept me up late). I'll be gone this weekend for a friend's wedding. One of my profs suggested I sleep in the car on the ride down. Probably not a bad idea. I'm also thinking that when I take my history test I'll bring my ice pack along and strap it to my forehead to keep my brain cool and not overheating.