Jen's Blog

Monday, October 29, 2007

This Is Your Brain On...

My brain is fried today, but I'm preaching on Sunday, so it's prime sermon work time. Which means I lead the Sunday text bible study on Wednesday morning. Paul just dropped by to remind me that I also get to do the two off campus services at the local nursing homes. Basically this week and next Sunday are going to suck for time. I will be worn out completely. Then there's the Winter Pineapple 5K I'm running next Saturday morning. Holy cow, how did I get so busy?? Need Spirit to download sermon to brain NOW.

Tuesday, October 23, 2007

Peace At the Last

Today I watched a woman die in a hospital. Normally the response would be "That's kind of weird. Why'd you do that?" It really wasn't that alarming to me because I went into my CPE mode. I didn't have to do anything, I just watched. I was just glad that I didn't have to do a hand print in clay of the deceased or cut off a lock of hair for the family. I had to do that as a chaplain in CPE. That was kind of strange. I understand that it brings comfort and helps people grieve, but it was odd touching dead people. You'd swear they're still breathing when you look at them. Amazing how your mind can deceive you with things like that.

In keeping with the death theme, tonight I get to hear Jurgen Moltmann speak on the Crucified God. I was planning on attending the budget meeting at church tonight, but I figured this is a once in a lifetime experience. The guy's pretty old and probably won't be around much longer.

Also with the death theme, I am going to check out a local Halloween party hosted by a friend of a young adult in the congregation. Should be an interesting time. Just have to work out the costume. I'm leaning toward pirate because I think I have the stuff for it, but I might have put the goofy pants in storage.

Tuesday, October 16, 2007

Tagged Again....This Time I'll Play

4 Jobs I've Held:
1. Craft Cabin Director (planned crafts for the summer, taught/helped ~150 per day to do crafts)
2. Day Camp Counselor (on site: week long camps with 10 campers; off site: lead three person team doing week long day camps at different churches)
3. Undergraduate Chemistry Researcher (researched using a DMD as an inexpensive detector for AAS)
4. Sustaining Fund Coordinator (prepare spreadsheets, prep event data and mailings, produce the HS/Partners event program book, event data analysis)

4 Films I could watch again and again:

1. Pride and Prejudice (A&E version: all time favorite—Colin Firth, Jennifer Ehle….such an amazing book and movie!)
2. Pirates of the Caribbean: Black Pearl (great to have on in the background and I love the swashbuckling adventure)
3. The Importance of Being Earnest (yet another Colin Firth movie that is full of comedy and wit…need I say more?)
4. Ocean’s 11 (heist movie with surprise, intrigue, comedy—just plain entertaining)

4 TV Shows I watch:
1. Grey’s Anatomy (yes, I’m an addict. I like the commentary and drama and medical edge.)

2. House (another medical drama. I like the dynamic of relationships and how messed up/dysfunctional people manage to operate together for good.)
3. The Office (don’t see it all the time because of work or not being able to tape 2 shows at once)
4. So You Think You Can Dance (summer favorite—totally love it!)

4 Places I've lived:
1. Fairview, PA
2. St. Paul, MN

3. Lynnwood, WA
4. Hopefully soon Tijuana, Mexico (???)

4 Favorite foods:
1. Bread—all kinds really

2. Red beans and rice
3. Authentic Hispanic cuisine (Mexican, Spanish, Latin American)
4. Soup—there are few foods that are so versatile and can be packed full of good stuff

4 websites I visit everyday:
1. Weather.com

2. Google
3. Seminary page
4. Blogger

4 favorite colors:
1. Green

2. Burnt Orange
3. Mustard Yellow/Goldenrod
4. Wine Red
**Fall colors work best for me and are my favorites.

4 places I'd rather be right now:
1. Tijuana, Mexico

2. Barcelona, Spain
3. Ireland
4. Slovakia with Karen

4 names I like but wouldn't or couldn't use myself:
1. Lucy

2. Nathan
3. Olivia
4. Aiden

And my 4 blogging friends that I'm tagging are: (this is the tacky part…sorry people)
1. Megan

2. Natalie
3. Amanda
4. Karen

Aqui estoy

Tijuana, Mexico was amazing. We worked at three different places last week. First we went to Juanita's where we spent two days
  • moving a huge pile of gravel from the street above to the house below--this traversed about a 15-20 foot descent down a hillside at roughly the angle of 30-45 degrees. Very hard work. We used large plastic buckets and manual labor to hoist them down to her house.
  • digging out the foundation and laying the foundation cement block wall including rebar reinforcements
  • mixing, passing and dumping buckets of concrete into the holes of the cement block foundation
  • chucking the empty buckets back for more concrete
The third day was spent working at clearing rubble from a crushed up concrete pad that used to be a basketball court at an orphanage for young girls aged 2-14. They house and care for 55 girls. We were amazed at how well behaved the girls were and how much the staff loved these children. We got to eat lunch with them. I talked a little bit with them in Spanish and tried to translate for some of the other group members during lunch when I could. The Mexican government donated a front-end loader to clear the rubble away from the front part of the orphanage where we had moved it.

The fourth and fifth days were spent working at Modesta's where we literally built the walls of her new house from floor to ceiling. It is truly something to see the walls of a house just go up in two days built by people who don't necessarily know exactly what they're doing. Wow. 12 block rows later and two cement pours to stabilize the walls and there's the house. She will have two windows and three doors; one for the bathroom, one for the outside and one a double wide to connect to the next module of the house they plan to build in the future.

I very much appreciated the Esperanza model for building community not just with the other people and families who enroll in the program and work (much like a Habitat project with sweat equity) to build their houses but also building community with the people who are building the houses. We got to know both the families and the girls at the orphanage in our short stays there. I even got to bless Juanita's house before we left. It was all just so inspiring and overwhelming. There was so much to take in and think about.

Like, do the girls at the orphanage realize that their lives aren't "normal"? Do they remember what it's like to have a family? How will they turn out? Will they be damaged goods or will they be able to turn out as stable, productive and capable people? Will Modesta ever be able to afford a new bathroom and the second part to her house? Who else will Juanita be able to bless with her smile and delicious food? So much to ponder.

I hope to be able to go back again. I'd love to spend my entire summer after graduation from seminary down there working with Esperanza. There is something very holy about working with the people there and being needed by them. There is something about speaking Spanish that just gets in my blood and I can't stop speaking it. It's intoxicating and invigorating. Praise God for trips like this that show you the world and change your view and, in essence, save you from yourself.

Friday, October 05, 2007

Aqui vengo!

Voy a Mexico para construir casas por una semana. Debe ser divertido!

Wednesday, October 03, 2007

Did You Ever....

Did you ever find yourself pursuing something and going after a goal that seems right and then, as the goal begins to materialize, realize that you feel like you have no idea what you’re doing? I think everybody ends up in this place.

Did you ever feel like you somehow missed out on a developmental stage or level of life and now find yourself trying to make up for that?

Did you ever wonder how you managed to make it this far in life knowing all the stupid things you’ve done and tried?

Monday, October 01, 2007

Music to My Ears

In the last couple of days I have discovered how powerful music is in my life. I’ve always been aware of how important and engaging music is for me, but until recently I hadn’t realized the depth to which singing is soul mending for me. When I don’t feel good or “quite right” I usually turn to music to express with words the emotions I sometimes cannot name right away. Inevitably there is something in my playlist that just hits the spot for me. Generally when I’m feeling down I like to listen to some more sad songs to speak how I feel. In the last couple weeks I’ve found that I have been craving songs of praise to God; a far cry from the anxiety I’ve been harboring. Something inside me craved to sing praise despite my inner turmoil. I keep coming back to the story in Acts (16.25) where Paul and Silas are in the inner most cell of a prison singing praises to God. It must have been a dark, lonely and depressing place. Plus they had been flogged prior to entering the jail. Out of such pain, agony and despair came praise to God. The whole concept is quite mysterious to me. All I know is that it’s true as I have borne witness to the Spirit at work in me drawing out praise I could otherwise not give.